Most Kings

"Inspired by Basquiat, my chariot's on fire. Everybody took shots, hit my body up I'm tired. Build me up, break me down to build me up again, they like "Hov we need you back so we can kill your ass again" -Jay Z

I'm not sure how I even came across City of Savages, but I'm so happy I did. The quote on the shirt is one of the closest quotes to me, especially one I can relate to so I'll briefly write on how I came about this quote. I wanted to learn something that educators were too afraid to write in our text books throughout elementary, middle, and high school so when I was in college back in 2009, I took numerous African American history and humanities courses. During the humanities course, one of the last artists my teacher taught us about was Jean-Michel Basquiat. My teacher showed us Basquiat's work, described it, showed us his frustrations, how he was vulnerable but also blunt, my obsession for Basquiat started. Not to mention, he wore designer suits while he painted, not caring if he destroyed them in the process. Being into fashion, that always sparked my interest. One of my favorite pieces he made was the Most Young Kings Get Their Head Cut Off. He'd circle and cross out words to make you pay attention more. I've always been drawn to mysterious people. I always want to know more than what people show because I'm one of those people myself. There's more to me than what I give out. His work was incredibly thought provoking. When Jay-Z came out with Most Kingz in 2010, I related even more, not only because I'm a Jay fan, but because I had just started my blog and there was a lot of criticizing. I put myself on this platform as a way to express myself, not for people to tell me what I should and should not be doing. I still never think it's okay to judge someone for who they are but understand that it is a part of being in the so called "spotlight", which is something I don't aim for. I'm here to express myself, not to be famous and not to be judged. My favorite Jay line from that song was "People look at you strange, say you changed. Like you worked that hard to stay the same." Success has changed people around me more than it has actually changed me. Life is about growth and change, so absolutely, I have changed over time. I'm only getting older, learning more, not making the same mistakes twice, so change is inevitable. If you're not changing, you're not growing. Also, I've noticed many people have this idea that being well known or famous will make them happy. Being famous is the emptiest dream you could reach for. You might get a little bit of shine but will soon realize being noticed by people isn't rewarding. Doing it for fame is dissatisfying. You constantly are judged by people who you don't even know in person and most people who know you in person want to see you succeed but not more than them. Everybody wants to be king till shots ring.

Wearing: City of Savages hoodie, ASOS white shorts, Dorothy Perkins black coat, F21 (similar) white heels