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Arabian Goddess

"I'm doing music but there's a bigger plan for me. At a certain point, I wasn't given this power for no reason and now it's starting to open up. I was thinking about my funeral and thinking who would be at the funeral? People who I want to be at the funeral, I want to have world leaders that were affected that said Kanye gave me my shot here, or he pushed me, or he told me to believe in myself. Or when I saw this, it made me feel like that. I want to affect people like that when I pass away. --It's a pursuit and it's a responsibility. If people have done things before, you should be able to surpass them. It's like I'm on a pursuit of awesomeness. Excellence is the bare minimum." -Kanye West

I have a lot to say this post. I usually hold back what's on my mind but I feel like sharing with everyone my current thoughts. Addition Elle, you are everything amazing for this one piece ruffled bathing suit. Most of the time when I get certain items of clothing, I can already envision how I'm going to wear it, how my hair and make up will be, and what scenery i'll be in front of. Really great swimsuits that catch my eye are hard to come by but this one piece is perfect. I'm becoming a fan of my slicked back hair. I always tried slicking it back when I had my really long hair but it never looked right so I stuck to my high buns. I have been eager to wear this Egyptian collar necklace since my mom gave it to me almost 3 years ago. I have been saving it for the perfect outfit. It is one of my all time favorite statement pieces. Also, can we discuss how my nails match perfectly with the teal stones in the necklace? These past few months I have had a lot on my mind. Thinking about my career, my place in the fashion world, and how I affect people's lives. Sometimes I tell myself not to talk about certain topics, this being one of them but nothing feels better than getting issues bothering you off your chest. As many events as I've gone to, dinner parties, photo shoots, the fakeness in this fashion world is at an all time high and I'm on my last thread with it. You blog some about your passion and people feel like they know you personally. Firstly, I want to say that I believe people think because I'm larger, they expect me to be more conservative. Which by now, you should know that will never happen. I'm not the girl next door look, I'm not the business woman look, I'm not the everyday wear look, I'm not the usual. I dress half naked, I'm risqué, my style is edgy. Not everyone can relate to me or my style and I don't expect them to. My career is in an industry that looks down upon people who don't conform. Fashion is about creating. Let me be myself without your criticism. I dislike using the word outcast because I don't ever see myself as a victim but I'm very much an outcast. Not because of my looks but my thought process. Trying to watch what you say, trying to watch what you do or wear because it might not be what brands or people like feels like a form of jail to me. Fashion right now feels like jail. It's suppose to be about expression and when I can no longer do that, I need to find other ways to express. What I'm really trying to say here is that I'm not going to mediate who I am as a person, what I say, how I dress, how I look for anyone or any brand. For brands, working with me is a risk in the sense that I'm not your everyday look, I say real things a lot of people are afraid to, I twerk, cursing is part of my everyday vocabulary, I wear gold teeth, I dress provocative, and these could possibly be turn offs. That is why I want to personally thank Addition Elle. They are a company who has genuinely studied me and my blog, knew what I was about, knew and understood the message I want to get across about truly loving yourself, truly accepting who you are, and regardless of my style, size, or personality, they have consistently believed in me. This company is so much more than stylish clothes, they are a brand that stands up for me and my movement and wants to bring better into this world through fashion. It's so important to stay yourself, especially in such a saturated business. Thank you again to Addition Elle and everyone who believed in me.

Wearing: Addition Elle ruffled swimsuit, mesh booties, Egyptian collar necklace (similar)